He Who Has a Why To Live For Can Bear Almost Any How- Friedrich Nietzsche
I’ve been on a much deserved vacation from work all this week.
I felt Spring Break was the perfect time to re-energize and gather my thoughts since Spring symbolizes rebirth and renewal. Also this time frame marks my 8th year at my current job and I felt it symbolic to take this time of rebirth to rest and prepare myself for the hard work ahead. I have another week vacation left to use later in the year and I know that one will be spent putting the final nuts and bolts on a project I have in the works to launch. I know that this will be no easy walk in the park but this is worth the large feat.
I don’t plan on returning to my job in 2016.
For that reason alone I have been on my P’s and Q’s at my 9-5, so that my paycheck can stay right and I can continue to stack for my savings. Self doubt tries to sneak its way into my existence but I push it out consistently because the reality is that I learned the skills to run my own business thru my current job. Without the fancy corporate title basically what I do is sales, from the initial client contact to closing the deal. Early last year the lightbulb went off in my head and I said to myself, “If I can do this and make this much money working for someone, then what can I do for myself while doing something that I actually enjoy?” That alone was a huge awakening for me, I mean I cannot even begin to explain what that revelation did for my consciousness, the self esteem boost that I received from that is immeasurable. It’s ironic that the self esteem that I received from that awakening translated into even more money at work. I feel different and more sure of myself, which means I am just that much better in sales. I get new clients consistently now. Last year just the shift in my mindset allowed me to have one of the best years yet in sales, just from commission and my side business I made an extra years salary. I am even prouder to say that I realized that I could do that entirely on my own and even more.
I had to test this belief in myself out. I had to know that it was real. Sometimes we have a tendency to believe things about ourselves that are nowhere true.
On all occasions I made more in a hour or two that I make in one day at the 9-5! All while doing something that I actually ENJOYED DOING! This was another powerful awakening for me, and again I cannot stress the power that it gave me over my life. I am honestly a COMPLETE different person than I was just a year ago. I honestly have the self esteem that I never had. I want to document this journey because when I was looking for inspiration online I couldn’t find exactly what I was looking for. I found plenty of memes that celebrated the material aspect of being independent with fancy cars, fancy travel, fancy clothes etc and it didn’t appeal to me because this is not about being rich and having material possessions that I could floss on Instagram and whatnot but a spiritual journey for me. Its not about the amount of money that I can make but about true happiness and freedom. The opportunity to truly live my life for me. The idea of what is successful has evolved for me into having a vision and being able to pursue that vision without the constraints of someone dictating my schedule. The idea of being able to pursue all my interests without the limitations of first having to spend 8 hours in the office is what keeps me going on the days that my drive is just a tad bit lower. Joseph Cambell’s wise words ring true in my ear…
Follow Your Bliss And The Universe Will Open Doors For You Where There Were Only Walls